Full-Blown Suffering: My Struggle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a overcast weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense pain sprang behind my one eye. Then came quick jolts, like electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense discomfort around a single eye that lasts for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another found 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to plan life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing records propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the condition note this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. One man's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

National guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are handled with acute therapy alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Melissa Randall
Melissa Randall

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